Of course Ireneus, you can also use the same explanation as the July 2009 Awake! and blame it on your depression.
"When Barbara’s depression and feelings of worthlessness are more than she can bear, she and her husband phone Gerard, a family friend who is a Christian overseer. He always listens patiently as Barbara sobs uncontrollably and repeats the same anguished thoughts she has expressed before. Gerard has learned to listen without being judgmental, argumentative, or condemning. (James 1:19) As the Bible advises, he has learned to “speak consolingly to the depressed.” (1 Thessalonians 5:14)."
Just say you're going through depression like the sister above and talk a lot of "wild talk" (like Job) when your head is all over the place. And say how disappointed you were with the negative remarks that elder made when what you really would have needed was an elder like Gérard in the magazine to comfort you - without judging you.
Useful to use the WT literature in your defence, because the boe cannot say it is wrong. Just a few thoughts on the matter. Hope it'll all end well for you. 🔆